Thats life

The church was lovely. A beautiful sight of Jesus and his knights. I looked down, "God, please fill me with joy. Fill the empty part of me. I need you". Then an idea popped into my mind. Him. I needed him. But not like a need in you know what. But a need of companionship and love.He sat beside me, but it was like nothing's there. I studied his expression. Oh God, I love this guy. I stared at him with love and affection. Looked away realizing I've focused on him too much.But I couldn't resist, I have missed this guy so much. I looked again and this time our glances met. I looked into his eyes. Startled with what I saw. -Ohgosh. I'm beginning to be a stalker now.- I looked at the altar again. Tears heating up. I didn't see love in his eyes nor the affection in his touch. Nothing just plain nothing.